Dr. Rodney McKay, PhD ([info]dr_rodneymckay) wrote,
@ 2006-05-07 20:52:00
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Current location:Group suite 2
Current mood: determined
Entry tags:angst, carson, group, john, me, meeting, rachel, radek, secrets

Family Meeting take 2
Rodney leaned against the living room wall nearest the front door, arms crossed and looking decidedly Not Happy. When everyone--even the cats, to his private amusement--had settled, he studied them intently; meeting each spouse in the eye before moving on.

When he finished, he tapped his fingers along his arm and sighed. "We are here having another meeting because we evidently have communication problems. And coming from me, that's saying a lot. So we are doing this: we will each tell one truth that no one else in the group knows about. When everyone has told one truth, then we start again. This time asking one question of each spouse. Something you don't know and are curious about, or whatever. We'll see what happens after that."

Scowling at the people he loved most, Rodney decided to start. "One truth you didn't know about me. I told you in one of those cute memes a while ago that I did great in theater. I didn't tell you how good, though. Shenzi figured it out on her own due to a slip I made but..." He took a deep breath then licked his lips. "I'm David Hewlett."

He very carefully didn't look up from the floor as he spoke. "Next."


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[info]engineer_radek
2006-05-08 01:11 am UTC (link)
Radek sat on the couch and watched Rodney worriedly. So soon after his stroke--barely a week, really--and Rodney was getting wound up again. But Rodney was right--they needed to talk.

When he revealed he was David Hewlett, Radek stared in surprised. One of his favorite Canadian actors...was his husband?! "I believe the American saying is...holy shit."

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[info]dr_macgregor
2006-05-08 01:42 am UTC (link)
"No kidding. You ever seen 'Where the Heart Is?' I can tell you, it was his heart-shaped..."

Rae looked up and the dead silence and flushed bright red.

"Anyhow. Back on topic. Umm. Something no one knows about me?"

She looked back down at her hands. "After my dad died, my mom tried to kill herself. I entered the fiddling contests because I thought if she was proud of me, she'd want to stay around. But she never really cared what I did or where I went."

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[info]engineer_radek
2006-05-08 01:45 am UTC (link)
Radek reached over and took Rae's hand.

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[info]lt_col_sheppard
2006-05-08 01:43 am UTC (link)
John reclined on his end of the couch, Andy purring contentedly on his stomach. He wondered if this was really a good idea--full disclosure of all their dark, awful secrets...did a group marriage really need *that* much sharing? Obviously...but they were going to need more than on night and one case of beer for this. He took a deep swig of the amber bottle in his hand, wondering for the third time just what type of beer it was--most things came in on the Daedalus sans label.

Andy does not appreciate the shower of fine beer droplets he's subjected to when Rodney reveals his secret...John has the fine pinprick clawmarks on his abdomen to prove it. Andy scurries away and scowls at him from behind a pair of his boots--tiny tail flipping angrily.

"*cough...* uh....y-y-uh...yeah. What Radek said. Rodney.....Boa vs. Python?! I mean really! Not that....I mean...you were hot, but...yeah. Shutting up now."

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[info]dr_rodneymckay
2006-05-08 01:48 am UTC (link)
Rodney was red from his hairline all the way to his collar. "Yes, well. It's a way to pass the time and make extra money. Sorry, John, but your government sucks at paying it's people. I made more money off of Cube than I did that entire year from your government."

"But...yeah. I'm David Hewlett. Or rather, David Hewlett is me. I needed a screen name, didn't I? Congratulations. You are now the only people besides my sister and my agent who knows my secret."

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[info]dr_c_beckett
2006-05-08 02:08 am UTC (link)
Carson wasn't sure what to say. He'd had his suspicions about the acting thing, but he knew what Rodney was really getting after. Can he do this? Feck, man, just say it.

"I find it very difficult to be aroused by, er... strong-willed women. I appreciate their strength and all, but it... doesn't do anything for me sexually."

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[info]lt_col_sheppard
2006-05-08 02:26 am UTC (link)
"here it is" he thinks....what Atlantis had been talking about..apparently what the kitten curled at Rodney's feet had sensed. John watches as Radek's fingers caress Rae's, then moves his eyes to Carson's lonely, fidgeting hands. There are only a few feet between he and Carson, but it seems like miles, especially with Carson's eyes downcast, dark lashes making mournful crescents against his cheeks. John's hand slips beneath Carson's and slides across it, palm to palm, until his husband's fingers open to his.

"sokay" he murmurs, barely a breath, his legs curled beneath him as he now reclines at Carson's knee.

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[info]engineer_radek
2006-05-08 02:27 am UTC (link)
Radek frowns as the implications of Carson's confession become clear. He quickly cuts himself off before the brewing emotional storm can overwhelm him. He finds himself quite suddenly with a lap full of fur and looks down to find Dora had hopped up and was demanding a petting. He obliged.

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[info]dr_macgregor
2006-05-08 02:33 am UTC (link)
Rae had gotten quite good at keeping her face calm, no matter what she felt. Now if only she could get her feelings under control... Ah, but that was part of the problem, wasn't? She was too pushy and controlling for Carson. Fuck, why hadn't he said this before? So she was right... He only loved her when she was submissive, and now that she wouldn't do that with him... A swift, sharp pain lanced through her heart before she could clamp down on it totally. Well, just like she thought earlier. At least friends was better than nothing. She just wouldn't... touch him like that again.

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[info]engineer_radek
2006-05-08 03:51 am UTC (link)
Radek stared down at Dora as he realized that everyone but him had shared. After a long minute, he speaks. "On one of my missions in the Gulf, I was to assassinate this...I do not even know what he was. Military leader, perhaps. I had him in Morena's sight and pulled the trigger as a child no more than twelve stepped into the line of fire. I was aiming for the target's heart. I hit the child's head. The bullet went through and killed the target, but the child..."

He swallowed once, hard. "I later discovered that the child was the man's nephew. He was visiting his uncle for the day. It was completely by chance that he stepped into the line of the bullet. It is the only time I have ever killed a child. It was shortly after that that I began pressing more firmly to be allowed into university."

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[info]dr_macgregor
2006-05-08 03:59 am UTC (link)
Rae immediately put her arms around him. //Oh sweetheart...//

Carson leaned over and put a hand on Radek's knee. "Ye couldn't have known what he'd do, love..."

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[info]dr_rodneymckay
2006-05-08 04:21 am UTC (link)
Rodney wanted to go to Radek. And Rae and John and even Carson, but he forced himself to stay leaning against the wall. This wasn't about him right now. Not really. He was doing this for the benefit of the group. They'd thank him someday. Maybe.

He gave them a couple minutes, taking the time to once again study his spouses. One question...who to ask...what to ask? Finally settling on Rae, he asked something he'd been wondering for a while now.

"Shenzi." He paused. "Rachel...why...how could you accept me? Ignore the fact that technically I'm your boss--hell, I'm everyone but John's boss--why would you ever want me? You had Radek and by the point you ever even showed you could like me as a friend I assume John as well. So why me? What is it about me that seems to draw all you gorgeous men--and woman--to me? I'm also curious as hell what it is about you that even arouses me since women on the whole don't do anything for me, but that's for another time."

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[info]dr_macgregor
2006-05-08 04:38 am UTC (link)
Rae tensed when his gaze settled on her. She blushed when he presumed she'd had John right off the bat, too. How best to put this?

"When you work on a fishing boat in winter, you learn to see what's underneath the ice, so you don't get caught up on it and get hurt. So I'm good at seeing things other people don't see. Somehow, that includes people.

I originally jumped at the chance to work with you because I know you would always present a challenge, that I'd always learn something new. When I met you, I noticed other people couldn't see past the attitude and snark. So I started to wonder *why* it was there. I noticed that you never bitched at someone unless they were being truly stupid, or you were trying to teach them something. You hardly ever yelled at me, because I actually tried to learn whatever it was you said.

When I got involved with Radek, I was more worried about the dynamics at work. But your being his lover, I also looked forward to maybe getting to know you better, finding out what it was about you Radek loved. I realized that you may not make it obvious to people... But you're brave, and funny, and caring, and really smart in a way most people just aren't, that you are desperate to connect with another person and haven't much idea how to do so, that you're loyal, honest to a fault, protective... And you have beautiful eyes and a nice ass, just like Miko said. Being the focus of your attention is a very humbling and flattering thing."

She looked back down at her hands for a moment. "And you actually believed the Lichtenberg figure was pretty. You never say something you don't mean, so that meant a lot to me. I'm not really sure why it is that I turn you on where no other women do. Maybe it's that connection. Maybe it's that I appreciate your honesty and give it back without cowering to your shit. I admire you and respect you. But I've never been scared of you."

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[info]dr_macgregor
2006-05-08 05:03 am UTC (link)
Rae tried to decide what she wanted to know. Carson was too easy a pick. She had questions, but wasn't sure she could bear the answers right now. She thought about it for a sec, then turned to John.

"John. I know it's different for everybody, but I'm curious... How is making love to each of us different for you? I mean, how... What do you feel for and with each of us?"

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[info]lt_col_sheppard
2006-05-08 06:18 am UTC (link)
John stilled his absentminded stroking of Carson's knee, his legs spread wide in front of him, toes nearly touching Radek and Rae's feet across from him. He'd been nodding vacant-eyed, silently agreeing with every word Rachel spoke, remembering for a few minutes, the Sheppard of years ago. The one that became so completely enamoured of the scientist he was meant to protect that everything else had ceased to matter until he'd broken through that icy, unapproachable shell and found his Rodney. Rachel suprises him with the question--he's still reeling from Radek's confession, coasting to a smoother place after ten minutes of roller-coaster emotion.

"couldn't you just ask me my favorite scifi movie, something easy like that? That's too hard, Rae" he grins up at her, flicking his toes playfully against her dangling foot.

Rodney murmurs something that sounds decidedly impertinent and John gives his husband his most elaborate middle-finger. Afterwards, he hooks one arm under Carson's leg and leans his head over, mulling the question for a few minutes before responding.

"well, like you said--it's different with all of you. I could ask if you just mean the physical act of making love, having sex...but I know that's not what you're going for-anatomy we all know. With, say, Radek-it used to be about how far we could go, how alike we were and how much we needed eachother...being with Radek is always...kind of cathartic, therapeutic. He's smaller than me, but he's strong, so it's almost like a test of wills sometimes."

Hazel eyes meet Radek's for a moment, and they share a quiet look, one that promises more time for that kind of contact, the intimate, healing lovemaking they'd once shared.

"With Carson it's always been different, he's different than any lover I've ever had...male or female. He gives and gives and....never seems to ask anything in return...just enjoys giving, enjoys what he can do to you, loves watching you. Being with Carson is always like being home. I never knew it could be like that until him..."

Rodney puffs up a little when John looks at him, and he nearly laughs, can't seem to help the next words that come out of his mouth.

"Rodney's just a good lay, but he never lets me top, so I'm thinking of witholding sex 'til I get the respect I deserve."

He doesn't even try to duck the pillow that's thrown at him, just takes it full in the face, punishment for his crimes against "The brain".

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[info]dr_c_beckett
2006-05-08 05:15 pm UTC (link)
Carson actually fidgeted at John's question. He ran a hand through his husband's hair. Might as well get this all out, bleed it out onto the floor. God knows Rodney wouldn't let up until they were all sliced open and raw.

"I've had a few things happen back at university where I had control... taken away from me. It makes be bloody nervous as hell ta think I can start something just by thinking about it. You saw the drone. A mere thought, and I could have killed someone. I've also thought that man created machines, so we should be the master of them." Carson blushed. "I had nightmares for weeks after reading 'I, Robot'. The thought that something we made would turn on us and kill us... I trust things I do with my own hands. Things I can see for myself and know I did. Then, any success or failure is purely my own making."

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[info]dr_rodneymckay
2006-05-08 05:18 pm UTC (link)
Rodney clears his throat pointedly. "Carson. The thing with Ancient technology is that you control it. What happened with the drone was that you were scared out of your fucking mind."

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[info]dr_c_beckett
2006-05-08 10:21 pm UTC (link)
Shame and self-loathing suffused Carson's emotions as he immediately let go of Rachel. Even with Radek's hand on his wrist, his hands came up to cover his face as his shoulders sagged. "Oh Christ... Oh God, I'm so sorry..."

He heard her ask the question he'd never wanted her to even know about. Sick with shame and guilt, he didn't even notice the tears leaking from under his hands. His husbands went with him as he sank to his knees. It came pouring out, an unblocking of festering emotion that he'd never dealt with before, a wound lanced after years of being unhealthy.

"I loved him! I thought Eric was the one, it was so good... Then he fell for Jenny, tried ta get me ta want her too. I tried, God knows I tried, but I loved him. She kept pushing and pushing, tryin' ta get me ta want her, too. Eric loved submitting to her, being her little slave. I didn't, I wasn't interested in that with her...

Come Saturday morning, I woke up chained ta the bed... Jenny thought it would be fun ta 'convince' me I wanted her. The spirit wasn't willing, and flesh can be convinced... She ignored me when I said stop, ignored the safewords... I told her no, and she kept... Eric ended up marrying her, he left me, and he married that bitch..."

Carson put his face in his hands, unable to look at any of his spouses. How could they stand him now, knowing how weak he really was, how out of control he'd been...

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[info]dr_rodneymckay
2006-05-08 10:50 pm UTC (link)
While Radek went over to Rae, Rodney stayed with Carson and held him as Carson sobbed out the tale. Without realizing it Rodney began rocking the man in his arms, softly cooing to him; trying to comfort his husband any way he can.

Over by Rae, Radek froze with his arms around her as Carson spoke. That Carson had gone through that too... No man could understand what it was liked to be raped by a woman unless it happened to him. Even though he didn't even know it was rape until after the fact...but Carson...

He rocks Rae as Rodney rocks Carson, his head on her own as silent tears fall.

After several minutes, Rodney broke the silence that had fallen. He continued to rock Carson, his eyes closed and his cheek resting on his husband's head. "And even if you were inclined, you can't press charges. Besides it being your word against hers--and women almost always win in that case--in this...with what we do, the courts would see it as just a game. They wouldn't believe it wasn't consensual, even if they did believe a woman could Top."

Even as he spoke, Rodney commited the names Eric and Jenny to memory. Next time he was on Earth he'd cross-reference them with Carson's past and see what he came up with. Then...then she'd pay. Rodney opened his eyes and met Radek's several feet away. He wasn't surprised when the Czech nodded faintly. More often than not they shared a brain, after all.

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[info]dr_c_beckett
2006-05-09 04:04 pm UTC (link)
Carson leaned against Rodney, reaching across him to put a hand on John's knee. Their eyes met, all too knowing and open. He really didn't want to do this. His earlier shame should be enough... But it wasn't. They had to bleed out to be replenished. To let out the sickness before they could be filled with light again...

He sat back, hand entwined with Rodney's. Carson's voice was soft as his shadows encroached. "My Dad died when I was 5. A drunk driver hit the post truck he was driving, sent it off the road and he was pinned before it exploded. My Mum... We're close because I was all she had, she had no siblings. I was rebellious when I was a teen, always joyriding and shoplifting. I suppose Dr. Heightmeyer would say I was seeking attention from male authority figures. I calmed down a wee bit, got through university, then inta med school. Ye're required ta do so much, stay awake for so many hours at a stretch... I just thought I could use a little help staying awake, staying alert. help that was all too easy ta get in the medical field."

Rodney looks at him, surprised yet understanding, and Carson nods at him. "Aye. I knew far too well what you were going through on the enzyme. Your reaction was a lot like being hooked on speed. Wrecks you, but it feels bloody good when you're there. Fortunately, you weren't crashing and looking for another hit for your next ER rotation while driving one night. Loads of streets in Glasgow aren't well lit at night...

I never even saw the young man on his bicycle until it was too late. Nearly lost my scholarships, but the minister of Mum's church convinced them ta keep me if I did community service. Worked twice as hard as I did when I was on the drugs, and deserved every minute of it. I always hoped that if I had a son, I'd name him Cameron, as a way of atoning for the lad I... killed. All I could think of was, what mum out there doesn't have a son now, because of me?"

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[info]dr_rodneymckay
2006-05-09 04:15 pm UTC (link)
Rodney pulled away from the others and hugged himself. "I don't know how you do it, Carson. I mean, you have to still want it, right?" He starts rocking himself without realizing it. "It's an ache...and it never goes away. Not ever. It's always there and when you're so close...but you can't. You can't because it's bad and does nasty things to your body and I don't want to end up like Ford: crazy and shark-eyed and craving and so strong...

"...man, you should have seen me. It was awesome. For a little while I was superman and it was the coolest thing ever. My mouth and body could keep up with my brain finally and everyone else was just crawling in comparision. I could do anything with it...could probably even beat up Ronon...well, if he wasn't taking it, either. But at the very least I could take Teyla..."

Rodney comes back to himself and looks at Carson. "I don't know how you do it, Carson. Every time I'm near a Wraith...sometimes I wish I knew the address to that planet of Ford's. He had a whole stockpile of the enzyme in little vials and a couple soldier-Wraith in the back for harvesting. Just a little..."

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[info]dr_rodneymckay
2006-05-09 10:38 pm UTC (link)
Rodney meant it when he said she had the best ideas. Using the same type of therapy for Carson? It's such a 'duh' idea that he's wondering why he didn't think of it.

Eying her thoughtfully for a moment, Rodney then asks, "Radek, go get the box on my side of the closet. You know the one."

Radek's eyes darken in lust as Rodney orders him to get the box containing Rae's collar and cuffs. He rushes to comply and is handing the box to Rodney less than a minute later. "Here..."//sir.//

Rodney quirked an eyebrow at Radek but simply jerked his head to Carson, silently telling Radek to go back to their husband on the couch. Radek sat.

Turning back to Rae, Rodney opened the box and took out each cuff and made sure Carson could see each before putting them on her. He locked the cuffs together in front of her and set them in her lap. "Keep them there, Shenzi." At her assent, Rodney took the collar out of the box and stared at it thoughtfully. After a moment he passed it to Carson. "I got that for Shenzi, along with the cuffs, several weeks ago. After she asked me to be her top." He looked at Carson pointedly then held his hand out for the collar.

Rodney lovingly put the collar on Rae then caresses her face. "My Shenzi...such a good little girl...my girl, aren't you?"

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[info]dr_c_beckett
2006-05-09 10:53 pm UTC (link)
His eyes darken to see Rachel so quickly compliant, so sweet on her knees in front of Rodney... He knows why his husband's doing this. It worked for Radek, why not? She really *was* beautiful. He recalled how she'd looked at their last family meeting. Well, well, that seemed to make the jeans a bit tight...

Gods, the thought of topping Rodney has him aching in seconds. He'd been a bit squirmy, but actually, the sight of her forcefully kissing Rodney... His terribly gay husband certainly wasn't complaining. Radek's off the couch like a shot at the request, bringing back a small box, and then returning to his side. Carson knew it was in the closet, but hadn't looked in it. Wasn't any of his business, he figured. An eyebrow raises as Rodney shows him the beautiful blue leather that fastens so snugly around her wrists. The collar was just as lovely to match and seemed to have some small plates riveted to it. Rodney handed it to him.

"I got that for Shenzi, along with the cuffs, several weeks ago. After she asked me to be her top."

At the curious remark, Carson looked at the little silver plates. Each engraved with... oh. Oh my. *Property of Carson Beckett*, said the one just to the right of the buckle. It took a moment of blinking to realize that it was tears making his eyes blur. He looked back up to see Rodney holding out a hand and looking at him with that "aren't you a bloody idiot now?" look. He smiled a little sadly and gently kissed the collar before putting it back in Rodney's hands.

His snarky husband put it on her and spoke so... possessively. Regardless of all that had happened to him, Rodney was a wonderful Dom. Carson's hand wrapped around Radek's wrist next to him as he listened to the Czech nearly panting. Carefully, he drew Radek across his lap until the smaller man sat on his legs, facing Rodney and John still. Holding his wrists with the opposite hands, Carson rested his chin on Radek's shoulder as he embraced him. He whispered into his husband's ear.

"No matter our problems... She is indeed beautiful. Shall I keep you in hand, then, since I don't deserve ta touch her yet?"

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[info]engineer_radek
2006-05-10 05:48 pm UTC (link)
Radek moans as John pulls him close and gives in to the silent request. John is taller than he is by almost a head so the first thing he does is pull John down to his level. He knows the angle must be awkward for his husband but at the moment doesn't care. He pulls John into a demanding, possessive, kiss. One hand tangles in John's wild locks while the other lightly squeezes John through his pants; massaging the hard length he feels there while rubbing his own against John's hip.

"Show you what, John...miláčku? Show you that I have not always been so passive? So submissive? Show you that you belong to us--to me--and that we--I--will never let you go? That I care for you--love you--so very much that it is an ache inside me whenever you hurt? Show you that despite everything that has been revealed this night, that we are one and the same? Of all our spouses, you understand me the best and I you."

While he spoke, Radek had slowly unzipped John's pants and cupped his balls, one finger reaching back to stroke his perenium.

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[info]lt_col_sheppard
2006-05-11 12:04 am UTC (link)
"Show me it's ok" John whispers, his legs sliding open, feel dragging along the floor until he's at an angle, boots bracketing Radek's shoes. He lets Radek kiss him hard, lies pliant while his husband's hand delves into the front of his BDUs.

"that it's ok that I don't want to see what they're doing....that I only want you to myself for a while. Tell me it's ok that today I ran so far and fought so hard that I nearly passed out in the shower, all because I'm too fucked up to tell you....to tell you I'm....I'm afraid."

John's wide-open eyes cloud a moment as Radek strokes him, curls those so-familiar fingers around him, sending a jagged pulse of pleasure to his still-bound cock. "show me I don't have to be in charge, just....just for tonight, ok?"

John falls slowly to his knees, head tipping back in increments until he's looking up at Radek, fingers already nimbly working at the fastener of Radek's pants. He feels ragged, unwound, full of nauseous dread about what this means...why he can't stand the idea of watching Rodney order Rachel around...not anymore. He leaves the fastener half-zipped and presses his open mouth to the bulge beneath Radek's pants, knowing, after years--knowing that Radek's naked beneath, and it will only take a few moment's work to get to all that warm, familiar skin.

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